some transitions are necessary, some transitions are not. then there aer transitions that are necessary and difficult at the same time, but in my case it makes me quite delirious. notwithstanding the immense amount of details, constant self-reminders, and at the same time keeping an eagle's eye on everything, i am quite self voluntary towards learning these things. of course, its my job and what needs to be done needs to be done.
this may be the crutial time where more self discovery is revealed, or hidden forever.