sometimes, when you are in awe of someone you adore, you forget that who you worship is in fact human and not a god. incidentally, when you realize this, there is both disappointment and surprisingly, some understanding.
i realized i have started to psychoanalyze people more and more recently. its fun. its like and ongoing conversation that you have between good angel and bad angel, a tug of war between reasoning and personal opinion. im not obsessed. it doesnt affect me in any way except to consider things more thoroughly when it pertains to certain people. and that, is deifnitely better than how i used to operate before. before being bitten, before have the salt rubbed against open flesh, before the feel of the need to really become selfish and protect my own skin. selfish, a more appropriate word is smart. as much as i have learned this new lesson of politics, i also wish that i wouldnt have to act this way. however, some people deserve what they get...eventually.

"you like the IDEA of a boat."
you have no idea what a boat is, but you entertain and cherish the idea of it. what is dream anyway? where is mine? how do i get to it? so many questions so little answers.
finding it would be the perfect solution.

sometimes facing others is facing yourself. its both interesting and challenging. you face your fears so that next time around it gets esier to deal with and you gain more confidence. this is whats called breakthrough.

a bit at a time. there is no need to rush. however, there is the need to improve each time, even by the microinch.

hiding, procrastinating, running away, are illusory solutions to what needs to be addressed. it will eventually come back to haunt you. get to the root of things, stem it, and slowly yet surely fill the hole back with dirt. cover it up, plant some seeds, if you may, and watch the good energy grow.