sometimes, when you are in awe of someone you adore, you forget that who you worship is in fact human and not a god. incidentally, when you realize this, there is both disappointment and surprisingly, some understanding.
i realized i have started to psychoanalyze people more and more recently. its fun. its like and ongoing conversation that you have between good angel and bad angel, a tug of war between reasoning and personal opinion. im not obsessed. it doesnt affect me in any way except to consider things more thoroughly when it pertains to certain people. and that, is deifnitely better than how i used to operate before. before being bitten, before have the salt rubbed against open flesh, before the feel of the need to really become selfish and protect my own skin. selfish, a more appropriate word is smart. as much as i have learned this new lesson of politics, i also wish that i wouldnt have to act this way. however, some people deserve what they get...eventually.