Heightened sense of awareness?

Nope. It has never been my forte.
Ever since I could remember, my mom has always told me that I was, in a four-character chinese idiom, thick-branched and big-leafed. That was encouraging, since ideally girls were supposed to be, in another four-character chinese idiom, golden-branched and jade-leafed. Somehow, I had thought it extremely hilarious at the time, imagining my fourth grade limbs to be thick and unwholesome.
So I was careless. It was part of me, and to some extent still is. I have been trying to correct this disadvantage, because there are just too many things I miss out when I am like this. And besides, nowadays the price you pay for being careless has increased to more than just getting a berating from your annoyed parent. You can actually lose your bread and butter! (Speaking in terms of my having grown up, btw.)
Right. so what prompted me to write this? Its gotta be more than just describing growing pains. A heightened sense of awareness. Not so much as it is something that my friend is experiencing so that I should too, but more like I feel that it is important. In my bones, I believe that it is what helps bring that large piece of puzzle called your life together. So far, Im trying to get a whiff of it...but it hasnt presented itself to me yet. My impatience doesnt help either. If anything, on my christmas wishlist, I would like to be blessed with this heightened sense of awareness. But...BUT. Maybe you're right, maybe at this point in my life I dont need to have this trait as yet. Its just the fear and thought of it never happening that makes me worry.