another lesson learned. just when i thought things were getting better, something had to give. im thankful for it. gives me a reality check on things that i had missed within (and without) my line of vision.
being in the position to lead is frustrating, exciting, annoying, saddening, and exhilirating. yes, all at the same time. it is a challenge. as i am writing this entry, i feel the emerging love for this job. at first it was excitement, a different routine, a more fullfilling job. then it turned into a frustrating one, where each turn you make to avoid headaches leads you to three more tragedies. now, it has turned into some sort of mind game, an rpg. you are the omnipotent ruler and overseer of all the lands. you want to make sure your domain if free of trouble, and each minute critter, beast or circumstance that dares to threaten the peace of the land must be somehow eliminated. however, you are young blood. there are many ways to deal with these critters and beasts. some you banish, some you appease by throwing a bone, some you need to put in extra effort to keep at bay. so many choices, but which ones are the best used to resolve? experience. intellect. confidence.